Dudes and Chicks, man.

Growing Old Is Getting Old

I remember how sad I was the day I left for California.  I had been looking forward to this day for years, and it was finally happening.  I was making my dream of moving out West a reality.  My father and I had packed up the moving van, put my car on a trailer, and…

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Gut Check

I asked a friend today, “How do you race your bike when your heart’s just not in it?”  He replied, “With your legs.”  So that’s what I did. For those 40 minutes I could only think about 3 things: #1 The physical pain I was in. #2 How hard it was to breathe. #3 “When…

Sunday.

Life can be pretty unfair sometimes.  For whatever reason, shitty things happen to good people.  In fact, shitty things happen to all people, good or bad.  I’m beginning to realize being an adult might suck harder than being an awkward teenager.  I might even go as far as saying I’d rather be in my early…

When the world sat heavy on my shoulders, I would go to her.  I am missing her more than usual today. If you’re wondering how to live right now, think about it like there’s no tomorrow.

Peanut Heart Pt II

As the day continued, I found myself in an array of head spaces.  I was angry, sad, happy, numb, angry, confused, sad, lonely, happy, and then maybe a little regretful.  That’s just too many things to feel in one day. So I rode my bike. It’s been a while since I’ve been on the mountain bike. …

Peanut Heart

I’ve made multiple attempts at blogging lately, with every attempt ending in failure.  I feel it, I try and write it, I lose motivation.  That’s the problem with having a peanut heart.  It takes a while to crack, but once you’re in, there’s no turning back. This move has filled me with a million different…

Misery Business

We can’t always ascend on this roller coaster.  Sometimes we have to fall to the bottom.  Sometimes we have to ride it out.  It’s not always easy and it doesn’t always make us happy, but we can’t resist the pull of our roller coaster lives.  With good, comes bad.  With bad, comes good.  Thankfully, things…